~ 2/26/2006 02:49:00 PM ~
Sunday, February 26, 2006
[tests and exams should be banned!]
eva since sec4..
i've been getting these fears and uncopable stress for major examinations..
i figured maybe it was bcuz in my 3 yrs of education in dhs..
there wasnt much tests or exams to prepare for..
maybe some class tests.. or small common tests..
and it was usually only for a subject..
so it wasnt much of a bother..
sigh.. so why does it only seem to be only me that is getting so stressed out for sth(yes it's sth major probably) but others are optimistic enough to just get it over and done with w/o much worries???
maybe its cuz i fear the consequences..
cuz i have these conceptions that if i screw these major tests and exams..
i'd be dead...
experience tells me it's not always true though..
i mean.. in the end i end up doing okok.. or soso..
or at least better than others already..
yet ppl who seem less prepared than i am can still be so calm and relaxed..
i mean.. are they not afraid??
afraid of getting punished... retained.. humiliated??
grrr!!
and i juz dont learn my lessons..
i noe myself that my studying speed lags an average person by like miles and miles..
so means i should start preparing like months b4 the test/exam..
but i donT!!! and i cAnt!!!!
ah!